Staying at my best friend's house, she was spotted by her gangster uncle

Chapter 139 "Lu Tingshen, I like you."

Ji Qing choked up a little, and she tried to calm down:

"Lu Tingshen, I have liked you since I was very young. I know you knew it a long time ago, but you just pretended not to know.

There is only you in my world, and there is room for only you, but you have never had a place in me.

I know that maybe I can't be what you want, but there is no one in this world who loves you more than I do. However, from this moment on, I choose to give up.

I have waited for half my life, and I have given you all the golden time of a woman. I don't regret it because I have paid.

I hate the way I am now, how miserable and humble I am. I can't get a man's love but I have to beg for it. This is not the real me.

Lu Tingshen, I hope you are like me, unable to get the love you want, because you and I are the same people, wanting love but not knowing how to love.

You are destined to be alone because you are not worthy, not worthy of any woman's efforts for you, not worthy of being loved. "

Tears ran down Ji Qing's face. Only she understood this sad feeling.

She cursed him to never be loved again, and cursed him to never be loved in his whole life.

She is not magnanimous, nor is she a saint. She spent half her life betting on this man and lost, but she cannot do anything to bless him.

The moment Ji Qing turned and left, she held back, her heart had already been broken.

Lu Tingshen remained silent until the end. This was the last thing he could do.

He watched her leave, and not a single emotion was false.

They have been together from elementary school to college. She is his and Gu Jinyan's little follower. She is around them every day and has long been accustomed to their chattering.

She was right. Lu Tingshen had known that she liked him for a long time, but he pretended not to know.

Even if everyone called her Madam Lu, he would not respond, because this way he could avoid hurting her and maintain the status quo.

Lu Tingshen has no friends, but he still cares about the two friends around him, Gu Jinyan and Ji Qing.

They were like an iron triangle, accompanying him throughout his student days.

Ji Qing's departure was like the end of his youth.

Why can't there be family affection or friendship between men and women besides love? Can't it be simpler?

Ji Qing is a very smart person, but he did the stupidest thing.

She had known for a long time that Lu Tingshen didn't love her.

Before, Lu Tingshen did not have a nominal girlfriend, but there were many women around him. Apart from pretending to ignore them, she could not really face them, including her childhood.

She had driven away countless women in her childhood. Those women were greedy and vain, and wanted to be Mrs. Lu as soon as they got involved with Lu Tingshen.

There was no love at all except for her greedy and vain face, except for her childhood, which she drove away without any effort.

That childhood girl who was as kind as a little white rabbit. Ever since she saw her for the first time, she could tell that Lu Tingshen liked her.

That was before she lost her memory, when they were having dinner together, and Lu Tingshen's eyes could not deceive her.

Ji Qing knew him too well, and his every move escaped her eyes.

Lu Tingshen likes her but doesn't know it.

Lu Tingshen was too conceited, and just as she said, he didn't understand love either.

Someone as selfish and conceited as him doesn't deserve love.

She had not expected that the phone call could easily drive away her childhood.

After all, it was not easy to stay with Lu Tingshen. She thought she would be like those women, entangled.

But childhood is gone, gone so suddenly.

Lu Tingshen seemed like he was crazy during that period of time. How painful was her heart when she saw with her own eyes a man going crazy for another woman?

Yes, it hurts a lot. The pain is the same as it is now, coming in waves.

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The next day, Gu Jinyan called Lu Tingshen, hoping that he could go and see Ji Qing off, just as a farewell between friends.

Lu Tingshen thought about it for a long time, and finally he showed up.

It’s not that he didn’t want to see her off, but he wanted her to leave in a free and easy manner.

She should be as free, easy and handsome as before.

Ever since she fell in love with Lu Tingshen, she has really become less and less like herself.

Gu Jinwei saw it all and advised her countless times.

"Let him go. It's not too late to start now."

Gu Jinyan didn't want her to get hurt in any way, unless she asked for it.

There was a smile in Ji Qing's eyes, but it was a bitter smile. Thirty years of experience was not something that anyone could just let go of.

"I hope so. Maybe if I don't see it, I'll forget it."

Ji Qing didn't plan to come back. If it weren't for him, she might not have come back.

Love that is not yet loved is bitter and astringent.

Gu Jinyan wanted to say something when Lu Tingshen came over from behind. He was always like this, his personality and character were unclear.

He was mysterious, and maybe that was what she liked about him.

It’s hard to explain why a person likes another person, maybe it’s just an action, an expression, or a detail that others can’t notice.

Men always think too much about women, believing that status and money are the first options. In fact, this is not the case. No matter how many blessings they have, no one will make us fall in love with them.

This must be the case with Lu Tingshen, whose appeal has never been underestimated.

Ji Qing looked at him, her heart bleeding. She deliberately concealed herself, and this was the respectability he gave her.

Yes, for someone as indifferent as Lu Tingshen, the only reason he came to see me off was probably because Gu Jinwei forced him to do so.

"I'm sorry to bother you. You won't hold a grudge against me, right?"

Ji Qing returned to her previous tone, feeling relieved.

Lu Tingshen looked at her, as if he was back in college, when she often joked with him like a friend:

"I came here voluntarily, have a good trip."

He explained that indeed, if he didn't want to, Gu Jinwei couldn't do anything to him.

He was going to send her off, for whatever reason.

He didn't love her, but he did have the love of a friend.

Ji Qing smiled. He was still the same, and couldn't take jokes. She opened her hands:

"Can you hug me? One last time."

A hug was her last wish.

Lu Tingshen looked at her, hesitant. Gu Jinyan and the passers-by around were waiting for his response. Would he not fail to satisfy her last little request?

The smile on Ji Qing's face solidified as time passed. Was it a minute or a lifetime?

Lu Tingshen, please.

There was a pleading look in Ji Qing's eyes, and fortunately he walked up and hugged her.

This is a belated hug, I have been waiting for more than thirty years.

If they had been braver, perhaps the result would not have been like this. If they had tried harder, perhaps they could have been together.

If, I say, if she hadn't fallen in love with him first, maybe she wouldn't be so heartbroken.

"Go find her. She's in the northern suburbs. She called you when she was abroad and I answered the phone. I said something hurtful to her, so she left."

This hug brought to light a secret that had been kept for so many years, which shocked Lu Tingshen.