boyutpedia Chapter 365 Struggling for Yourself
Chapter 365 Struggling for Yourself
After finally returning to Tingfeng Garden, Lu Shian sat down on the rocking chair.
Since winter, she has become very fond of the rocking chair. When she has nothing to do, she always likes to lie on it and daydream or read a book.
He was sitting there with no expression on his face and didn't say a word.
Yu Xiuying looked at her worriedly: "Shian?"
Lu Shian acted as if he didn't hear it.
Yu Xiuying looked at her eldest daughter for help. Lu Xianchun shook his head and asked her not to speak: "Leave her alone for a while."
Lu Xianchun took Yu Xiuying away, leaving Lu Shian alone sitting there in a daze.
Lu Shian was sitting in a rocking chair holding the imperial edict. Her head was still confused and she didn't even know whether she was sad or happy.
How did she inexplicably become the prince's concubine?
Why is this happening?
She had thought about many things, but the last thing she thought about was marrying into the royal family.
Li Hongting is the crown prince now and will be the emperor in the future. The emperor’s women will naturally live in the harem. A bird that cried out to the sky suddenly became a canary.
Sharing a man with so many women was something she had never thought about, let alone competing with other women for his favor...
But the moment he received the imperial edict, all of this became a foregone conclusion.
Once you enter this situation, jealousy is inevitable.
Even though she didn't want to get married and didn't like Li Hongting...
If she doesn't marry...
Lu Shian slowly raised her eyes and looked into the distance blankly.
Not marrying is defying the emperor's will, and she is not afraid of defying the emperor's will. She thinks she can avoid it, but what about her family? Can they avoid it?
She doesn't care about the life or death of the Marquis's family, and she doesn't even care about the life or death of Lu Jingxun.
But Yu Xiuying is her mother, and there is also Lu Xianchun...
Ziyuan, they were still so young and cute when they met. Every time they met, they would open their little arms for a hug, and giggle with their soft faces pressed against me...
Wait, she is a concubine, then who is the principal wife?
She stood up and walked out. When Lu Xianchun and Yu Xiuying saw her coming out, they immediately went to greet her.
Yu Xiuying looked at her nervously: "What's wrong, Shian?"
"I am a concubine, then who is the principal wife?" It is impossible for the royal family to marry a concubine without a principal wife.
Lu Xianchun comforted her: "Don't worry, I have already sent someone to inquire. I believe the imperial decree was issued at the same time."
As he was speaking, Zhang Huai came back from outside!
"I found out that it was the young lady of the Qin family!"
Lu Shian was surprised and said: "The young lady of the Qin family is Qin Jingzhi!"
Lu Xianchun was also surprised: "How could it be her!"
After thinking about it, I feel it’s not that surprising!
Qin Jingzhi is well-educated and intelligent. If you think about it carefully, no one in Anjing is more suitable to be the Crown Princess than her.
Yu Xiuying's eyes lit up: "Aren't you on good terms with Miss Qin? Maybe you two can get along well."
Lu Shian smiled bitterly. If she had known there would be such an imperial decree, she might as well have married Shen Teng.
"I, I want to go out for a walk..."
Yu Xiuying was stunned: "It's freezing cold, where are you going for a walk?"
Lu Xianchun said, "Then I'll go with you."
Lu Shian forced a smile: "No, I want to walk alone."
Yu Xiuying wanted to say something, but Lu Xianchun held her back and signaled her not to say anything. Yu Xiuying sighed and could only remain silent.
Lu Shian took two steps forward, then remembered the imperial edict in his hand and handed it to Yu Xiuying. He did it so casually that it was impossible to tell that it was an imperial edict.
Although Yu Xiuying didn't understand any big principles, she knew that the imperial edict was nothing else. She took it solemnly with both hands, turned around and called Nanny Zhang to put the imperial edict away.
Lu Shian walked in front and Lu'er followed behind. Behind Lu'er there was a bearded man driving a carriage.
She didn't know where to go, so she just wandered around aimlessly.
People were hurrying along the usually bustling streets, if for no other reason than it was too cold that day.
No one wanted to stay outside for long unless there was something to do. After walking for a while, Lu Shian's feet became numb from the cold. She just walked slowly.
Suddenly, her feet slipped and she almost fell. Lu'er was standing not far away, but she didn't step forward because someone had already supported Lu Shian.
Lu Shian looked up and saw that it was Li Hongting.
She was somewhat surprised and more disappointed, because the person she wanted to see now was not Li Hongting.
After stabilizing himself a little, Lu Shian bowed and said, "I will take part in the competition..."
Before she could finish her words, Li Hongting pulled her back and said, "Don't be so reserved outside."
Lu Shian slowly withdrew his hand and stood there with his head down.
"Why are you still hanging out in such a cold weather?"
"I just want to go out for a walk!"
"you are not happy?"
"I am not unhappy!"
I just don’t want to be locked up in the inner courtyard of a mansion for the rest of my life, especially the biggest one!
"I asked my mother to make you my principal wife, but I didn't expect that my father would finally..."
Li Hongting was unfamiliar with explaining such things. He wanted Lu Shian to be the Crown Princess, but what the Empress Dowager said made sense.
Lu Shian is indeed very smart and capable, and the high-yield crops she grows do benefit the people, but this does not mean that she can become the Crown Princess. On the contrary, with Lu Shian's lively and eccentric personality, if she really becomes the Crown Princess, who knows what kind of trouble will arise.
My mother and the Empress Dowager like Lu Shian very much, and I will never treat her unfairly in the future.
Therefore, whether she is the Crown Princess or not will not affect Lu Shian's status.
Lu Shian forced a smile. She didn't know how things had suddenly turned out like this. This imperial decree changed everything for her.
"Your Highness, there is no need to explain." Lu Shian closed his eyes and took a deep breath, then opened his eyes again with a firm look in his eyes.
"Can I not get married?"
Li Hongting's eyes darkened: "What do you mean by that?"
Lu Shian bravely raised his head and looked into Li Hongting's eyes: "I asked if I could disobey the order."
"What are you talking about? Just because you are a concubine? I can assure you that you will always get the best from me, including me."
Lu Shian smiled. Being miserable was not her style. If this was not the life she wanted, she would struggle no matter what.
"Disobeying the order is a capital crime, Shi'an, you should think it through carefully."
"Must I die?" Lu Shian's eyes were clear, unlike the confusion before.
Li Hongting's eyes gradually turned colder: "Why?"
"Can you tell the truth, girl?"
"explain."
Lu Shian straightened his back. It wasn't every day that he had the courage to disobey an imperial order. Now that he had spoken today, he might as well tell it all. Regardless of success or failure, at least he had tried his best.
"I have never thought about sharing a husband with someone else. Maybe in your eyes, someone like me is a bit unorthodox. Even if you are the prince, I don't think I will be happy if I marry you, because the happiness I want is never wealth and glory. What I want in marriage is a daily porridge, a meal, three meals a day, four seasons, not a group of women scheming against each other just to make a man look at them more.
I dare not say that we will be together forever. I just hope that we can live an ordinary life and have a few children. Maybe we will quarrel over educating the children and have conflicts over trivial matters, but after the quarrel, we will still live happily. I know that as a prince, you may not be able to understand what I said, just like I cannot understand and accept that a group of women are willing to revolve around one man.
I work hard to grow high-yield crops so that I can achieve financial freedom as soon as possible, just to live the life I want. "