boyutpedia Chapter 265: Uncontrollable
Chapter 265: Uncontrollable
Time flies, Meng Yanchen is still working hard in the workplace, but the emptiness in his heart has never been filled. Whenever it's late at night, he always thinks of Xu Qin and the good times they had. He wants to find her countless times to tell her how much he regrets and how much he hopes to start over.
Life after Xu Qin left was not easy. She tried to adapt to the new environment and tried to forget everything in the past. She found a new job and made some new friends, but the pain in her heart could never heal. Whenever it was late at night, she would always think of Meng Yanchen and every little bit of their past. She knew that she had loved and suffered, and these were all part of her life.
Meng Yanchen stood quietly in front of the window, the rain tapping on the window glass, making a slight sound. It was like a silent elegy, echoing in his heart. His thoughts drifted back to the past with Xu Qin, those once warm times. After Xu Qin left, he worked desperately, trying to fill the void in his heart with a busy schedule, but the harder he worked, the deeper the loneliness in his heart became.
Suddenly, his phone rang. It was a WeChat message. He opened it and saw that it was an update from Xu Qin's Moments. It was a photo of her and a few friends. Xu Qin was smiling so brightly, as if she had walked out of the haze of the past. Meng Yanchen stared at the photo, feeling mixed emotions. He noticed that there was a man in the photo, standing next to Xu Qin, and they looked very intimate.
"She... has she started a new life?" Meng Yanchen felt bitter in his heart. He knew that he had no right to interfere in Xu Qin's life, but he couldn't suppress his nameless jealousy. He had an impulse to contact Xu Qin immediately and ask her who that man was, but reason made him suppress the impulse. He knew that he no longer had that qualification.
"Xu Qin..." He called her name softly, his heart full of mixed emotions. He couldn't help but recall the time they were together, when Xu Qin always leaned on him and smiled sweetly, but now, her smile only appeared around other people.
The rain was still falling, and the sound of dripping water seemed to be a wake-up call for him. Meng Yanchen sighed, and his heart became more and more confused. He didn't know how to continue his life without Xu Qin, nor did he know whether Xu Qin could come back to him. The regret and loss in his heart made it difficult for him to sleep all night.
Meanwhile, Xu Qin sat in a cozy cafe, the coffee cup in front of her steaming. She smiled brightly as she chatted with her friends, but deep down, she was still hurting. Whenever she talked about love and the future, her thoughts would always unconsciously drift to the man who had broken her heart - Meng Yanchen.
"Xu Qin, what are you thinking about?" Xiaoli, her friend sitting next to her, gently touched her arm, waking her from her thoughts.
"Ah, nothing, I was just distracted." Xu Qin forced a smile to hide her inner turmoil.
"Are you really okay?" Xiaoli asked with concern, "If you are unhappy about anything, please tell us."
Xu Qin nodded, but the bitterness in her heart was hard to express. She knew that her friends were all trying to make her happy, but there were some pains that only she could truly understand and bear.
A few days later, Meng Yanchen finally couldn't help but call Xu Qin. The moment the call was connected, his heartbeat accelerated and his palms were slightly sweaty. Xu Qin's familiar voice came from the other end of the phone, gentle but with a hint of alienation.
"Yanchen? What do you want to talk to me about?" Xu Qin's voice was calm but with a hint of surprise.
"Xu Qin, I... I just want to know, how have you been lately?" Meng Yanchen tried to remain calm, but his heart was filled with nervousness and uneasiness.
"I'm doing fine." Xu Qin's answer was brief and indifferent, as if she didn't want to talk more.
Meng Yanchen sensed her indifference and felt even more uncomfortable. He wanted to say something, but found that he had no words to say. Silence spread between the two of them, becoming more and more awkward.
"If there's nothing else, I'll hang up first." Xu Qin's voice was still calm, but with a hint of impatience.
"Wait a minute!" Meng Yanchen said anxiously, "Xu Qin, I...I want to see you."
There was silence on the other end of the phone for a few seconds, and Xu Qin finally spoke: "Okay, see you at the old place at three o'clock tomorrow afternoon."
After hanging up the phone, Meng Yanchen breathed a sigh of relief with mixed feelings. He didn't know what this meeting would be like, but he knew that he had to see her, even if it was just to take one more look at her.
The next afternoon, Meng Yanchen arrived early at the coffee shop they used to frequent. Sitting by the window, he nervously waited for Xu Qin to arrive. Every minute and every second seemed so long, and his heart was filled with anticipation and anxiety.
Soon, Xu Qin appeared at the door. She was still as beautiful as ever, but with a strange feeling. She walked up to Meng Yanchen and said with a smile, "Long time no see, Yanchen."
"Long time no see, Xu Qin." Meng Yanchen forced a smile, but his heart was filled with mixed feelings. He knew that this meeting would determine their future relationship, and he was ready to bear any consequences.
After they sat down, Xu Qin ordered a cup of coffee and looked at Meng Yanchen quietly. There was a bit of scrutiny in her eyes, as if she was getting to know the person in front of her again.
"Xu Qin, I..." Meng Yanchen was about to speak but was interrupted by Xu Qin.
"Yanchen, it's over between us." Xu Qin's tone was calm and firm, "You have your life, and I have mine. We are no longer who we used to be."
Meng Yanchen's heart seemed to be hit hard. He leaned weakly on the back of the chair and whispered, "I know, I was wrong. I just... hope you can give me a chance to make up for it."
Xu Qin looked at him, with a complex emotion flashing in her eyes. She took a deep breath and said, "Yanchen, some things are irreversible. You have to learn to let go and accept reality."
Meng Yanchen was silent. He knew Xu Qin was right, but he could not suppress the pain and regret in his heart. He lowered his head, clenched his hands into fists, and felt as if thousands of needles were pricking his heart.
Seeing him like this, Xu Qin felt a pang of sadness in her heart. She knew Meng Yanchen was a good man, but their life paths had already gone in opposite directions. She stood up and said softly, "Yanchen, take care of yourself. Goodbye."
A few days after Xu Qin left, Meng Yanchen's life seemed to have lost its direction. He worked mechanically every day, and when he returned home to face the empty room, the loneliness in his heart became stronger. Xu Qin's smile, her voice, everything about her lingered in his mind.